GRANDTWINS!!!
April 26, 2014--Our struggling family was doubly blessed with the birth of Journey Marie Brooks and Harley Quinn Brooks. Both girls are miraculously healthy for having been such a surprise. Journy was a very healthy 5lbs 14oz and Harley was 5lbs 13oz. Perfect in every way and this Nana could not be more proud. I'm in awe of how God has once again shown me a way through what I would have considered impossible. He makes it ALL possible and I love watching Him work. I think, maybe a bit too much because it seems He's always pulling off possibles with my impossibles!
I will write of our impossibles later, but right now I just want to share what, to date, the blessing that God has so lovingly and graciously bestowed upon us at a time when He knew we needed something huge to keep our heads up and our hearts filled. On top of all the struggles that have been assaulting us lately, the complete destruction of our former home that contained all our belongings, packed and ready for relocation orders, and subsequent (and still ongoing) investigation into it, added an immense amount of strain and pressure to an already very difficult situation.
My God knows His children. And He knew that He would have to do something that would truly get my focus and keep it. He knew our little family needed light, hope, miracles, grace, mercy, support, love, and the experience of living life previously unknown to us. I look back across time and I see how He prepared for this moment. For more than a moment, but for a path. A plan He has had and was putting into place. The steps He took. He knows His child. What I saw as repeated assaults, He used as building blocks, lessons over time, and when I started to bend and break, He was there, reminding me of His presence and my need to simply TRUST. That's hard to do for someone like me. I had trusted Him and I felt He had let me down, I had failed to acknowledge it was not He that had let me down but it was ME failing to truly allow Him to carry me. He needed me to understand that He alone was my rock.
Everything, and I do mean everything, fell away, leaving me alone and vulnerable, scared and stripped of self. My God knows I need more than words. I need to SEE things. I take care of my business. I worry about my family and I do whatever I can to handle everything but here I was, wondering what happened. How was I standing where I was, at this time in my life when I had worked so hard and loved so much, and did what I was supposed to, and I wondered if my life would ever be whole again. Would I be struggling on the street? Would my daughter, who had come home, be on the street with me or would we be forced to split our lives? How would I ever get out of the pit of financial and emotional and physical trials? And now my career was taking a massive left turn and relationships I had never thought would end were failing and there was no help to be found.
He knew I needed a powerful intervention. One that would keep me focused and one that would keep me from messing up His plan, by thinking too much or making my own decisions. I can almost see Him, almost like David Copperfield...keeping my attention here, when over there, He is putting things into place.
These babies, well, they are definitely multiple blessings in multiple ways. How God wraps so many things into one little package is simply amazing. Literally, God has traded beauty for ashes. I was left with nothing, facing a mounting trail of hardships, and He pops these little miracles into the mix without any time for questions, fears, or thinking at all, and here we are. It's as though a flood came through and swept us up and has carried us along, miraculously, and wonderfully, to a vastly different land.
Through the pain and struggle, my heart is light. My eyes are bright and my smile is often. My son, my daughter, and my grandtwins are in this amazing place of starting, literally, new lives. It's still very hard. There are lots of challenges and hardships still present but the best part is having God hold us. He has repeatedly shown us He has got this. And when I feel the doubt or fear well up, or tease me in the night, when I lie alone in the dark, I hear Him say, I have this, My Child. Let me care for you. Haven't I so far? And it is then that I can relax and breathe, and sleep.
I hope to be able to document my testimony so that I can share it with anyone who needs to be reminded that God does in fact, work miracles today. We can see them if only we look. And, if it is ourselves that need a miracle, we need only pay attention and allow Him to work.
A new state, a new city, a new office, a new place to call home, new lives, new life(x2), and all sorts of new adventures, are ours for the taking. Meeting new people, doing new and different things, finding ways to disconnect painful memories with activities and things we truly love so that we may enjoy them again, and waiting to see what God has in store for me. He knows my heart and my desires. I don't know if I will ever get a "YES" to my prayer but I know He has it under control.
Until later, here's our miracle...
I will write of our impossibles later, but right now I just want to share what, to date, the blessing that God has so lovingly and graciously bestowed upon us at a time when He knew we needed something huge to keep our heads up and our hearts filled. On top of all the struggles that have been assaulting us lately, the complete destruction of our former home that contained all our belongings, packed and ready for relocation orders, and subsequent (and still ongoing) investigation into it, added an immense amount of strain and pressure to an already very difficult situation.
My God knows His children. And He knew that He would have to do something that would truly get my focus and keep it. He knew our little family needed light, hope, miracles, grace, mercy, support, love, and the experience of living life previously unknown to us. I look back across time and I see how He prepared for this moment. For more than a moment, but for a path. A plan He has had and was putting into place. The steps He took. He knows His child. What I saw as repeated assaults, He used as building blocks, lessons over time, and when I started to bend and break, He was there, reminding me of His presence and my need to simply TRUST. That's hard to do for someone like me. I had trusted Him and I felt He had let me down, I had failed to acknowledge it was not He that had let me down but it was ME failing to truly allow Him to carry me. He needed me to understand that He alone was my rock.
Everything, and I do mean everything, fell away, leaving me alone and vulnerable, scared and stripped of self. My God knows I need more than words. I need to SEE things. I take care of my business. I worry about my family and I do whatever I can to handle everything but here I was, wondering what happened. How was I standing where I was, at this time in my life when I had worked so hard and loved so much, and did what I was supposed to, and I wondered if my life would ever be whole again. Would I be struggling on the street? Would my daughter, who had come home, be on the street with me or would we be forced to split our lives? How would I ever get out of the pit of financial and emotional and physical trials? And now my career was taking a massive left turn and relationships I had never thought would end were failing and there was no help to be found.
He knew I needed a powerful intervention. One that would keep me focused and one that would keep me from messing up His plan, by thinking too much or making my own decisions. I can almost see Him, almost like David Copperfield...keeping my attention here, when over there, He is putting things into place.
These babies, well, they are definitely multiple blessings in multiple ways. How God wraps so many things into one little package is simply amazing. Literally, God has traded beauty for ashes. I was left with nothing, facing a mounting trail of hardships, and He pops these little miracles into the mix without any time for questions, fears, or thinking at all, and here we are. It's as though a flood came through and swept us up and has carried us along, miraculously, and wonderfully, to a vastly different land.
Through the pain and struggle, my heart is light. My eyes are bright and my smile is often. My son, my daughter, and my grandtwins are in this amazing place of starting, literally, new lives. It's still very hard. There are lots of challenges and hardships still present but the best part is having God hold us. He has repeatedly shown us He has got this. And when I feel the doubt or fear well up, or tease me in the night, when I lie alone in the dark, I hear Him say, I have this, My Child. Let me care for you. Haven't I so far? And it is then that I can relax and breathe, and sleep.
I hope to be able to document my testimony so that I can share it with anyone who needs to be reminded that God does in fact, work miracles today. We can see them if only we look. And, if it is ourselves that need a miracle, we need only pay attention and allow Him to work.
A new state, a new city, a new office, a new place to call home, new lives, new life(x2), and all sorts of new adventures, are ours for the taking. Meeting new people, doing new and different things, finding ways to disconnect painful memories with activities and things we truly love so that we may enjoy them again, and waiting to see what God has in store for me. He knows my heart and my desires. I don't know if I will ever get a "YES" to my prayer but I know He has it under control.
Until later, here's our miracle...
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